a walk to remember

i've finally applied for uni. yay. went back to hc today to get my recommendation letter for scholarship from ms lin jus now... weather so hot la. and i had to travel such a loooong distance back all alone. sigh. no one i can ask to pei me there sobs. had a lil talk with ms lin. and realised we were kinda neighbours back then before i moved house. haha. she's from chongfu primary.. ahh... i spent like 1h plus travelling there and another 1h plus back. but i only spent like 15min in sch. ayerr.

walking to the gate, the bus stop, waiting for 961. every step reminded me of you. i cant believe how much this affects me. perhaps you're right when you say i duno how to let go. indeed i dont. taking 961, seeing all the landmarks that the vehicle passed. everything. getting off at the interchange, changing to 962. every step i take. it hurts.

it's amazing how time flies. amazing how things change. amazing how things over there change. amazing how i see them unfold thru the one-way glass i see. amazing how i go through so much to find out your progress. amazing how indifference lingers. amazing how acknowledgement still exists through a broken tie. why. why is it you can say hi to my friends but not me?? why? do you really hate me so much.. cos i don. i neva did.

the tears and heartache he gave me. you're giving me jus as much. right now. how promises shatter. how eternity neva stays.

i don even know if you still read this. i don think so. altho some part of me. or rather most part of me wants you to. but i see you're happy there. then i guess. it's fine.

没有理想
你要我如何前进？

been a while since i've updated and we've already gotten our results alr.. haha. i wont say i'm upset about my results. neither will i say i'm very happy. cos of the fact that my favourite subject turned out to be the worst of all. sigh. but i thank you, Lord, for helping me through the terrible examinations and giving me such wonderful grades=) i've never gotten As before and for the first time in 2 yrs, i see it ^^

i saw you that day. but you didnt. it hurts. cos you walked away.

now it's time to headache about wad course and uni to apply for. i've to give up yong siew toh cos it's too late to prepare for the auditions. and i cant make it. sigh. i seriously duno wad course to take. a few interested ones.
1. linguistics and multilingual studies in ntu.
2. psychology in ntu
3. music performance BA degree in NAFA
help me man. i cant decide.

went for mission trip the following day on 8/3 and i had a blast there! i really learned alot. and i hope they stay with me forever. may i never forget how God brings us through everything as long as we have faith in Him. He will never watch us suffer. He'll carry us on His back and by his stripes, we're healed.

also thru this 7 days, i learned more about myself. i say i've learned to put down. yes indeed i've put down the subject, but i'm too weak to put down the emotion. the fear. the hurt. i cannot forget those moments. i jus cant. i don feel the connection with anything. anyone. i've seen how ppl may be so close today. and turn their backs on you tml. teach me how. teach me.

i'm torn to whether to approach you. i don want to go back yet i want to.
do you understand wad you've done?

ef ~ a tale of memories~

yoohoo everyone. sorry bout the false alarm bout hte results thing. wasnt wad i wanted anyways. sigh but at least now it's confirmed to be this fri. super anxious now. wad really bothers me is that i'm going for a mission trip this sat. one day aft i get my results. i'm jus afraid i may not make it in time for all the application and registration stuff :( i hope i can make it... sigh.

i still have zero idea of wad course to take. ok maybe a tinge of idea (i'm improving!) i'm really interested in adm still. arts design and media. but it's a definite impossibility that i can get in, given their entry requirements. cos i so cant draw. sighs. but i kinda narrowed my choice to media. the filming part. i love how angles and art delivers one ideas. really beautiful. either that or i'll jus go NAFA or lasalle to study music.

ANYWAYS there's this anime that everyone ought to watch. zettai. you all really should watch. it's definitely one of a kind. it dwells on really deep issues. it may be confusing at first but if you watch carefully and take note of their literary hidden messages you'll understand it totally. and you'll love it as much as i do. the way the portray it is jus very different. really artistic.

YOU should watch it.

ef ~a tale of memories~
do you have any memories you dont want to forget?